Fears

We all have fears in our lives. Some are justified and some are just plain silly. Right now my biggest fear is losing Todd. I just have this feeling that there is something really trying to pull us apart. He was in the hospital for a while and came home today and now is talking about going out of state for some stuff. And I have this fear that if that happens we won't be as strong as we are. I know he needs help with some things and I am trying to not be selfish, but it's hard to not think about what would happen to our relationship and our power for God if he leaves now.

I don't know what to do I am in tears right now. I am afraid I won't see him for so long. I haven't seen him for two weeks, and if he goes to Ohio, who knows how long it would be before we get to see each other again and be in each others arms. For the past two weeks all I wanted to do was hold his hand, pray with him and read the Bible with him but I couldn't because I couldn't be at the hospital with him, and now there is no way that I could do that. How can I be the Song of Solomon girl when he is in another state?