Life

Life can be hard sometimes. Things come up and you never know what will come out of this. Recently my boyfriend was admitted to the hospital for health problems and has had tests, and operations and what not to finally get him fixed. It all worked and there is still a few more things that need to be done, so he's still in the hospital.

The hard part is since I don't drive I can't be with him as often as I would like. I want to be there every day but out of the two weeks he has been there I have only been able to see him twice. It's so hard and sometimes I feel like it makes me a bad girlfriend or makes him think that I don't love him as much as I say. It's just hard to not feel that way sometimes. I do love my boyfriend with all my heart and I want to be there with him holding his hand and doing everything I can to help make him feel better. I know he needs me, but I can't be there. It's so frustrating and so hard! I call him like 3 or 4 times a day just to see how he is feeling, I'm sure he's getting tired of me calling so much lol.

I think sometimes we get worried so much and fear the worst. I know I was. I had faith that God would take care of him and heal whatever it was that causing him problems and he did, but not the way I wanted him to, but still he healed him and I praise God for that. I just wish I could drive to go see him, work and so much more.