LSAT Practice Test

I attempted a practice LSAT and GRE yesterday, and I was just getting so extremely frustrated that I ended up giving up half-way through and then 3/4 of the way through. I know when I go to actually take the test I can't give up, but I have a lot of hard work ahead of me and I seriously don't think I will be able to take this test. There is so much logic and I don't understand any of it. While working on the test I was curled up under a blanket, and I ended up hiding. The more I look at the test the more scared I get. The first score (halfway through) I had 120 and then the second time I had 126. Not too good. I'm afraid that I am going to put so much effort toward the LSAT and then I'll fail it and let myself down. The GRE isn't too hard I can do that one, but that's not the majorly important test. I spent an hour on the phone with Matt last night talking about it (and other things), granted Matt (who is supposed to be one of my best friends) doesn't think I could be a good lawyer simply because I am a Christian and a kihd-hearted person (ok so his words were "wimp"), but I think I would be a good child advocate, I just can't do logic. ....holy run on batman....

I am working with some LSAT prep stuff, but I still can't figure logic out...maybe I should have taken logic instead of philosophy last fall.... Could I accomplish this or am I just setting myself up to fail once more?

Changes

There was a big conversation about people changing and chaning people. It was commented that it sucks that you cannot be mad at some for being themself and not changing....Why would you want to change someone?? In my opinion, I have a deeper respect for someone who doesn't change who they are just because someone else told them they need to. If someone cannot accept us as we are no matter what, then what is the point? We can't go through life trying to change those we love and cherish. It is a person's personality and what not that makes them who they are and why we love that person, if we try to change them then all we are saying is "you're not good enough for me."

If a person changes, they need to be the one that decides that a change needs to occur, no one else. No one has the right to say that we need to change a part or all of our personality to have them cherish us more or respect them. How can you not respect someone who won't change who they are?? To me...not changing shows strength in who a person is. All I know is I am happy with the person I am, and I will not change for anyone else....and I don't expect people I care about to change who they are.....I like them just the way they are.

~~~I also realized that my dad's snoring sounds like Darth Santa......

Hmm

So far it has only been two days of Christmas vacation and I am bored out of my mind! I know I'll be bored and not see anyone I want to see during this break. I'm not sure what I will do during the break, maybe read a few books maybe write alittle because Jeremy told me to write some more. I may work on the two short stories I have going "Wooden Fright" and "The Prisioner". Though I am stuck with both of them so if anyone has read them and have any idea let me know...All I know is I am going to be bored out of my mind...Someone save me from my madness....

Kitty Cat Dance

I couldn't stop laughing.....this is great.....


www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/kittycat.php

So yea

I have been watching my neighbors off and on tonight (I can see into the living room from my room) and over the past couple hours, they have progressively gotten drunker. One guy and girl are attempting to dance which is funny because they keep falling. The more they try the better they get. Another girl is dancing on a table (this i did once). THis and other events in the past couple of days have got me thinking about drinking.

What is the point, I mean don't get me wrong I have drunk a couple times this week, but no more than 2. What would possess a person to get so drunk that they pass out and then the next wonder how they got so drunk. That question was possed to me today. I was asked how can one's alcohol tolerance go down in just a few short years. To that of course I had no real answer. This week was finals week and people have come in to take the final with hangovers, now in my eyes you would want to be soder when taking a major test. I see how people act now as seniors in college and I have to wonder how are they going to act in the professional world? You can't show up for a major presentation or something drunk....that would get you fired. I would have thought that seniors would focus more on getting that dream job and being professional about things, but apparently I was wrong.

To me a drink from time to time is alright as long as it's not in access. When it starts to get out of control and you pass out in someone's else's room then there is a problem. the more I watch my neighbors and other people being drunk I wonder if they realize how stupid they really look and sound. Every so often I get to fall asleep to the sounds of frat boy drinking song......"tuesday's drinking day, wednesday drinking...." it goes on like this for a while, everyday they same except thursday....day to get laid apparently. THis kind of stuff i do not need to hear outside my window at 2:30 am....luckily it's winter and too cold for then to wonder around campus.

I'm just astounded by the stereotype of college kids, and am glad I am not a part of it.

*TEAR*

SO i have spent the past two days cring, why...I have no clue. This semester has taken so much out of me in so many different ways. I just feel so drained, emotional, mentally, and physically. I have felt "weak" in a sense all semester, and I have prayed to God to give me strength and it feels as if I've been getting no answers, and I don't really have anyone to talk to because everyone in my life is too busy to just sit an talk for long amounts of time. My days are spent in the apartment either watching tv or doing research for a paper/thesis I'm writing (no i don't need a thesis, just writing one). I haven't gotten to see Amanda that much, I've seen her all of twice this semester. The only people I interact with are MIssy, Lindsey and Donya, and we're lucky if we are all in the apartment at the same time. It's hard to fight lonliness when you're always alone and have no one to talk to.

I did get offered an internship for next semester, so I'm excited about that...that starts next semester tuesdays and thursdays. I will be working with the public relations department on campus, so it's not what I truely want but I'll be writing and it's easy to get to :). It'll be nice to not live off of my refund check. I can actually save something. I have a couple finals left and then this semester will be over with. Can't wait....

Song of the moment: "Honestly" by Cartel..

SNOW!!!

It has been snowing since 5 evening, and not like sprinkle snow, snow to the point where it is white out and looks like day. I just looked out my window and you cannot see even a hint of a black sky. Not to mention the people screaming outside the windows. Anyway, when the snow started to actually stuck the four of us were watching this person climb the part of the soccer field hill that has no construction and just sit on their sled and wait. Seriously this person waited like 10 15 minutes before more snow fell. They switched positions on the sled and at one point Lindsey opened the window and yelled "You can do it!" That was when sledder went down the hill and went lopsided and fell in the snow. HAHA. Missy and I remembered the first time we went sled riding...freshman year with Jason and Tom. One of the memorable points was when some guy stripped to nothingness...yes he was completely naked and sleded down the hill then ran to his dorm...of course Tom and some of the other guys blocked the girls so we couldn't see. I also remember riding an inner tube thing, and at the bottom of the hill people set up like a ramp, I hit that ramp and flew, and I mean flew through the air...apparently I went the highest and farest (i know not a word) I slammed to the ground unable to see cause my glasses flew off somewhere, Jason had to search for them and i had to helped off the ground....ah what fun.

What is it about snow that makes us either want to curl up on the couch with someone special and watch a movie, or run outside and play in the snow until our bodies are numb. There is like no happy medium when enjoying the snow :) It's great! I no longer have crazy friends to play in the snow with *tear*

The Weekend

This weekend was a wonderful break from finals and everything. Friday night was bowling with Chi Alpha. We took up six lanes with roughly 6 or 7 people to a lane, and some people didn't bowl. My team, our motto was "More than three." I ended up getting a 57 my first game :( but as the night wore on my bowling got better. I got a 104 my second game and a 78 my last. It was more fun hangingout with eveyone. At one point Brandon M decided he needed to bowl with my glasses, which meant I had to bowl without them. Of course w/o the glasses I couldn't even see the ball so I sucked heh.

Sunday night was a night of relaxation for the women of XA. We had a spa party at Katerine's. We had foot massages, hand massages, facials and lip stuff. It feels like I was walking on the beach for days, my feet are so smooth. Oh yea and the Mary Kay woman read us a story by Max Lucado "You are special." Both nights where exactly what I needed. I ddin't worry or even think about school and how I was going to get everything done. Although Saturday I got sick, and yesterday I fell on some ice and got hurt *tear* Maybe the rest of my week will be better.