Plans

I'm still not quite sure what I should do with my life, but I do have some options. I have applied to a couple schools for graduate work. I've applied to Carlow Universtiy in Pittsburgh for their M. Ed in Secondary education with a concentration in English, still waiting to hear info from them. And on the advise of Greg, I applied to CMU for an MA in Critical Thinking/Analysis. Greg thinks I should try and stay in the publishing aspects of my life. So I'm looking into that, it's what I wanted to do orignially so..thanks to greg for sparking my interest again.

Recently entered my story "Wooden Fright" into a short story contest. Hopefully I'll win and see that I can not only write poetry, but also write short stories. On the poetry front, I've been sending query letters and poems to various poetry magazines, so we'll see where that takes me.


Song of the moment: "May It Be" Celtic Women

Stuff

How is it that I can easily get myself into a situation with someone where I have no clue what is going on, and I have no idea of figuring it all out, so then I'm constantly thinking of said person and random events between us.

How is it that two people can flirt and show interest everytime they see each other for 5 years, and yet nothing happen between them? How could one person know if the other feels the tension and chemistry that they feel, or could they chemistry/tension just be there because of the situation? Better yet can a person really act interested in another person to the point where the other can't do anything but think of said person and wonder....what if? What is between us, what would happen if we tried to see? would a long friendship be jeoperdized?

How can a girl know for sure that the guy she's interested in, is interested in her? Is in the way he treats her and acts around her (constantly reaching for her hand, smiling, winking, rubbin her leg {knees}, getting VERY close). How can the girl find out what is between the two without hurting the friendship or anything?

The gist of my situation is a long time friend, and I have the tendency to flirt shamelessly with each other and lately...it's been stronger then normal. I'm not the only one who sees something there...friends and family see it too, I just don't know how the other feels....and I want to know, I just don't know how to really found out.....when we've danced he's held me tighter then I have EVER been held. I need help...if anyone can help me and give me advice as of to what to do....

My Week....

has been fun and somewhat interesting. I had my book signing on Saturday, and I managed to sell 5 books (ok so two went to Amanda and Greg). I was bored out of my mind until Greg came by. He stayed and kept me company for about an hour or so. Then Amanda came for a little bit. It was all good, and maybe I'll be able to schedule another book signing somewhere.

Swam with Greg on Tuesday, and Donya and Tom on Wednesday. Had fun both days it was nice having someone to talk to and interact with other then my parents. Living at home and not having a job at the moment has been driving me insane! I applied to Cal U for secondary education so now I can teach english somewhere so I'm just waiting for a response from them.

Sometime this weekend, I'm going swing dancing with Greg, Amanda and her sister are coming to. So that should prove to be interesting...never swing danced before, but I'm willing to try ALMOST anything once (exception is sushi icky!)


Song of the moment: "Billie Jean" by Micheal Jackson

****I'm in an eighties mood right now***