Falling Fast
It's been a couple days since I started talking to Mr. Wonderful. Everything I have learned about him I like, and I want to know more about him and talk to him more. I don't think I have enjoyed talking to someone as much as I enjoy talking to him. The more we talk the more qualities he shares with the men I admire and respect highly. He even somewhat measures up to the kind of man Uncle Larry was, which is a tough feat let me tell you.
I admit I am falling fast for him, which does scare me a little. I mean we just started talking, we haven't even met yet, so how could I be falling so fast and so hard? I have this feeling that he will bring the best out of me, he has so far, unlike Jacob who brought out the worst. I mean with Jacob I started doing things I swore I would never do, and I think with Sam, he would never put me in a position where I would be uncomfortable. I also think that when he holds me and hugs me, I will finally feel safe and protected. I don't know why. I just know I will feel the way I've dreamt of feeling when I'm in someone's arms. Granted a few guy friends made me feel safe, but I think, no I know this feeling will be different.
We could talk for hours, and already have a hard time letting each other go just to go to bed and be able to talk the next day. I could only imagine what it would be like when we do finally meet. I can't wait...After two or three days I know I'm in trouble with this one. It also seems like I have finally found someone who will accept me for me, and not expect things from me that I couldn't possibly be able to give or do, the way Jacob did and still tries to do. Part of me is glad we didn't meet while I was battling cancer, cause I didn't want to bring someone new into this whole cancer thing. (oh yea if you haven't heard I'm cancer free now). It's just weird. Everything I want and look for in someone I found. And I was starting to think I was being too picky and I'd never find someone with everything that I wanted, but he has it all and then some.
I know I said after all that I have been through, God better have had something good in store for me, but I never expected to find someone like Sam, and online no less.
I admit I am falling fast for him, which does scare me a little. I mean we just started talking, we haven't even met yet, so how could I be falling so fast and so hard? I have this feeling that he will bring the best out of me, he has so far, unlike Jacob who brought out the worst. I mean with Jacob I started doing things I swore I would never do, and I think with Sam, he would never put me in a position where I would be uncomfortable. I also think that when he holds me and hugs me, I will finally feel safe and protected. I don't know why. I just know I will feel the way I've dreamt of feeling when I'm in someone's arms. Granted a few guy friends made me feel safe, but I think, no I know this feeling will be different.
We could talk for hours, and already have a hard time letting each other go just to go to bed and be able to talk the next day. I could only imagine what it would be like when we do finally meet. I can't wait...After two or three days I know I'm in trouble with this one. It also seems like I have finally found someone who will accept me for me, and not expect things from me that I couldn't possibly be able to give or do, the way Jacob did and still tries to do. Part of me is glad we didn't meet while I was battling cancer, cause I didn't want to bring someone new into this whole cancer thing. (oh yea if you haven't heard I'm cancer free now). It's just weird. Everything I want and look for in someone I found. And I was starting to think I was being too picky and I'd never find someone with everything that I wanted, but he has it all and then some.
I know I said after all that I have been through, God better have had something good in store for me, but I never expected to find someone like Sam, and online no less.
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